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Unrequited Love?
Kaijou and Seirin had just had their first practice match, which was shaping up to be a tradition of sorts. This time, Kaijou had gone to Seirin. The gym was nice, newer then Kaijou's but maybe not as big.
He was breathing heavily, but smiling broadly. It always felt good to play, even if it was just a practice match and they weren't going all out. After all, he wanted to keep some of his new tricks up his sleeves, just like he was sure Kagami and Kuroko were hiding some of their new tricks too. This year's match had ended in a draw. Better than last year's practice match, which had ended in Kaijou's loss by two points.
Just thinking about Kuroko made Kise look over to the Seirin team, focusing in on the smaller boy.
For awhile now Kise had realized that he had feelings for Kuroko. Kise had looked up to Kuroko for awhile, but it wasn't really until after the Winter Cup that Kise realized he was probably in love with Kuroko.
He took a towel that one of the first years offered him. "Thanks," he said absently. He scrubbed at his face, his thoughts racing. He had been thinking about Kuroko a lot lately, and seeing him only brought those thoughts back to the surface, only pushed aside when the game had begun. Now with the game over he couldn't focus. The warm glow in his chest that came whenever he thought about Kuroko was back with a vengeance.
The Kaijou team was gathering their things and getting ready to board the bus. He told the first year that he'd be along in a bit and began to head over to the Seirin team.
"Kurokocchi~" he called out. No time like the present, he thought. He didn't know if Kuroko would return his feelings, but he was hopeful. The time Kuroko had cheered him on while he went up against Haizaki stood out in his mind.
"Kurokocchi! You got a minute?"
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I take offense to the idea that I wouldn't be at 100%, no matter what. Please be ready to eat your words.
There, some banter to help lighten the mood. And take his mind off all this awkwardness, trying not to think about how he can't doubt his friend's attraction to him any longer. There's a small part of him that is still in denial, imagining it to be a massive fluke, just a misunderstanding of one's feelings - even after being told point-blank. The cognitive dissonance had not been easy to shake, and perhaps, it made it easier to go about things as if nothing had changed.
But it's hard to say Kuroko is not more conscious of Kise now. That their relationship is going through a fundamental shift.
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For his part, Kise is going to stick his head in the sand like those giant birds do in cartoons.
Really, nothing's changed, he tells himself. Kuroko likes boys. He'll see another guy wanking sooner or later. Maybe he'll walk in on Kagami, or someone on his team in the showers. Or something.
There's jealousy in those thoughts though. He does his best to push it down. And he thinks he succeeds.
He sighs, as quietly as possible and rolls ont his back.
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Now go to sleep.
Kuroko is more than amendable to moving past all this. He understands— he's a teenage boy, too, even if he clearly did not have to deal with as much hormones as others. He won't hold this against Kise, except to think of him as a bit perverted for being willing to do it outside.
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Well, he wouldn't argue against being a bit perverted. He was a red-blooded young man.
He's not in a rush to do it again. But he... might consider it. If he was desperate.